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title = "Off days"
author = ["Colin"]
date = 2017-09-23T00:00:00-04:00
lastmod = 2019-05-29T12:39:21-04:00
categories = ["life"]
draft = false
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We're all entitled to having off days, but it doesn't make them any easier to
work around. I woke up today without much ambition, despite the fact that we
have chickens that need to be slaughtered. To add insult to injury, after we
decided not to worry about slaughter, I went downstairs to discover that the
toilet is not filling. There's simply no water in the supply line. To make
things weirder, the sink that's on the same line works fine. We've been working
thorugh issues with sediment in our well water, and it seems like this is
probably related. But we really have no idea.

Yesterday was a funny day too where matters beyond my control led to me not
being very responsive at work. That carries it's own stress as deadlines loom
and people expect a certain result and you have to explain why the result is not
there yet. Effectively, today is a day where the rug feels slightly frayed
around the edges. Life is hardly falling apart, but things are just starting to
slip a little bit.

We're all entitled to days like these, but it doesn't make it any easier to
weather, especially when working on remainig stoic about life, it can feel like
a setback. That said, the feeling of discouragment is really pride. Pride that
you thought you had things under control, when in reality you were never in
control of the things around you, but simply your respones to the things around
you. Centering in these moments involves acknowledging that all you can do is
control your response and actions, and doing your best to return to those
